Guest blogger – Megan Hansen
As most of you know, Pastor Dave’s daughter, Megan, is in Ireland doing an internship with the Causeway Coast Vineyard. She recently graduated from Cal Poly with a Bachelor’s degree in English. She is a talented writer and is a frequent blogger. The following excerpt from a recent blog post shows a talent for communicating complex ideas in a simple, easy to grasp way (and that the apple does not fall far from the tree):
My perception of God is small. It’s part of the definition of God that I should not understand all of it. I know that when I make God big in my mind, I’m only simplifying and enlarging qualities, rather than giving God room to be something different from what I expect. The most impressive thing I’ve learned in the last two years is that I’m not as smart as I think I am (note: I consider myself to be a very intelligent person, don’t worry about that), and that God works in little things.
It is apparent that God is big–that in 6 days the world was created, in a moment the sea was parted, with dirt and spit blindness was healed. But God works in the small ways, too. Makes himself small and smooth, rolling about in consciousness or subconsciousness reminding each person “you are mine”, whether you like it or not.
I can’t remember a time when the thought of God the Father, and the memory of “you are mine” did not incite a desire to be useful. When the Father’s love is clear, when it’s sitting there in front of you or rolling around in your mind, something bursts inside and says, “what can I give?” This might only last a second for you, if you don’t believe, or have reasonable reasons not to believe, or are just not paying attention–but that is the only response to have, and it happens in me constantly.
So that’s why I’m here, wandering foreign streets at night as an alien. That’s why it doesn’t matter if you agree with why I’m here or what I’m doing. That’s why it doesn’t bother me that I sometimes doubt God, or dislike the Church, or think people are crazy (not a comment on my current situation). That’s why it’s not a problem that I struggle with many things in my job right now. It’s why I’m secure in my strengths and weaknesses and happy to tell you about it.
You can read the post in its entirety here.